18 May 2009

Why does it have to ache inside?
Why do I have to weep each night?
I think I have to
peregrinate on by...
Cuz I'm starting to lose my sight...

What is it that changed your mind?
Who is it that keeps you blind?
Why did you change so fast?
Did you really have to leave me behind?

I start to think about all we had
And how it turned this way...
I guess I'll have to leave your side,
And turn my face away...

Although my soul will die...
Although my heart will cry...
I've got nothing else to do,
I'm hurt deep inside

But although I'll leave your side,
You'll be always on my mind...
My heart and soul will ache for you,
Every day and every night...

You're my never-ending love,
The love that keeps me alive...
You're the one I'll love forever,
Although it hurts inside.

GOBLET

What is spirit and what is cognition?
Is life a cellar or is it an Attic?
cognition is a consequence, Life is the question,
and spirit is the answer.

What is dull and what is bright?
What is day and what is night?
It may be dark, it maybe daylight,
but its only what you see through your eyes.

What is loss and what is gain?
What is pleasure and what is pain?
Pleasure is the loss and pain is the gain.
But time preaches that ‘All is the same’.

What is conquered and what is lost?
What is expensive and what is not?
Conquered is whatever is not lost,
Expensive is little more than you have got.

What is sin and what is sacred?
Is it love or is it hatred?
Sin is whatever circumvents belief,
Love and hatred are names for relief.

What is hurt and what is a tear?
What is far and what is near?
Hurt is what induces a tear,
Far is what once was near.

So many questions and so less answers,
Life is the stage and we are the performers.
Questions will remain only the answers will change.
The past is lost; the present is gone, only the future remains.
Reason is not the finale; thought is not the verge,
Death is only the edge,
Realization is the suffix,
Then what is the crux?
The answer is the Goblet,
And the universe is the palace.

It is beyond what all words can speak,
And afar from whatever the eyes can see.
It is something beneath the depths of oceans and seas,
Unknown, unconquered and mysterious it will be,
Forever, like our own distant dreams.

FORGIVE-(NESS)

To not to be able to forgive and inability to take revenge keeps killing you continuously inside.
We see that sometimes we get into an altercation with somebody or somebody says something to us with which
we start feeling that we are being looked upon down, we are being wrongly evaluated, other person is trying to hurt us
deliberately or other person did something wrong with us when he had option of not doing it, then we get hurt.
We get infuriated. We want to teach a lesson to other person.
We keep doing a calculation within ourselves continuously about how to teach a lesson to that person
or we keep doing numerous arguments within ourselves to prove to us that we are right.
When we see/confront that person then it reminds us of that feeling of hurt again.
Every action of other person his smile, his gesture, his walking style, his entire body language,
his words everything looks negative/fake to us. Everything in him increases our feeling of hurt.
With time this feeling of hurt keeps multiplying. We also start seeing every previous action of that person as antagonistic
The more we dig into our memories about our interactions with that person the more we hurt ourselves and
increase the willingness to teach a lesson to that person. If other person is the one who has been close to me
since a long time then it hurts me more.

If somehow we comprehend with that person or feel that he did not intend to hurt or he meant something else
than what I assumed or he had no other option than what he did, then we restore our comfort.
We see that all this is happening, but why this is happening?

Feeling of Non-Acceptance for another human being is not Naturally Acceptable to a human being.
Till the time a human being has this feeling of Non-Acceptance for another human being he keeps killing himself inside.
At least one is able to see that this feeling of Non-Acceptance for another human being is very painful.
As I described above, all those things happen and keep your mind occupied.
In fact when a human being has this feeling of Non-Acceptance for other human being he spends all his energies to
come out of the pain which he is feeling out of that feeling of Non-Acceptance.
To come out of this pain, he plans to take revenge, he comes up with several arguments in his
defense and also to teach a lesson to other person, his feeling for other person changes,
he starts undermining other person and several more such things happen.

The thing to notice here is, once we get a feeling of Non-Acceptance for other person we try to do
several such things which I described above. In all those methods we may be able to secure our comfort with
that specific other person for some time but the possibility of this feeling of Non-Acceptance to come within us
still remains available, with that person or with some other person again.
On the other hand suffering with this feeling of Non-Acceptance is not Naturally Acceptable to a human being,
so there is a need to identify the root cause of the problem and work over there so that this feeling of Non-Acceptance
never comes again.
The root cause of this problem lies in the inability to recognize the root expectation/desire within a human being
and means to fulfill it. This root desire/expectation is of Unconditional Acceptance in a human being
from others around. A human being by birth has this expectation of Unconditional Acceptance from others around
but lacks the competence to give it to others.
His Acceptance for others remains dependent on others acceptance for him.
A human being is not able to accept others when they are not able to accept him.
As soon as he feels that he is being unaccepted by other person then he also start getting a feeling
of Non-Acceptance for that person and this feeling of Non-Acceptance hurts him and NOT the
Non-Acceptance of other person for him. This can be verified by anybody or needs a verification by everybody.

So ultimately it is the feeling of Non-Acceptance within me which is the source of hurt/pain within me.
What all I try to do is to either hurt other person or to convert the feeling of Non-Acceptance in other person for me into
Acceptance, anyhow. This creates all problems like hatred, anger, jealousy, competition etc.
To understand Acceptance we need to understand ourselves,
so ultimately it comes down to a problem of our own lack of understanding of ourselves.

So when there is Acceptance, forgiveness is automatically there. In fact Acceptance is the basis of forgiveness.
To understand Accepance, Trust, Respect and Relationships we need Knowledge. It includes understanding
related to:-Self,Family,Society,Nature.

To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness.

Remember that a life well lived is your best revenge. Instead of focusing on your wounded feelings, and thereby giving the person who caused you pain power over you, learn to look for the love, beauty and kindness around you. Forgiveness is about personal power.
Forgiveness does not necessarily mean reconciliation with the person that hurt you, or condoning of their action. What you are after is to find peace. Forgiveness can be defined as the "peace and understanding that come from blaming that which has hurt you less, taking the life experience less personally, and changing your grievance story."

As The father of the nation said once : The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.

Make a commitment to yourself to do what you have to do to feel better. Forgiveness is for you and not for anyone else.